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[10 Feb 2006|04:06am] |
I hope everyone has been keeping up with their Lost and Dark Tower. By the by, DT comic has been pushed to february 07. O, discordia...
TOO MUCH COFFEE!!!!
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1 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[08 Dec 2005|02:52pm] |
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im at the apartment now so my updates will be less frequent now. to get in touch with me try my cell i may or may not haver minutes (484-433-0943) or (484-802-6402) just ask for me. thats all.
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I kill with my heart.
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[22 Nov 2005|11:41pm] |
i don't wanna do thanksgiving this year. and thats sad, becasue thanksgiving was always my favorite holiday. its the one time my family gets together and has a good time. it never fails. last year's thanksgiving is on my top three list of best thanksgivings ever. number one happened when were back on hobson street.
i actually went down to south west recently and it's so fucking depresing. it was also three in the morning, and cold, but still.
"argue not the hand you are delt in cards or life." -Arthur Eld
"So don't let the world bring you down, not everyone here is that fucked up and cold."
I went to the granite run mall tonight and saw this pretty girl and she gave me this really warm smile, and i smiled back because a-she was pretty b-i have not seen a smile that iviting in God knows how long and c-why the fuck not but i didnt go talk to her even though i wanted to i told myself i was too stoned but that wasn't it im just fucking shy and it's annoying to have that barrier, oh well what can ya do?
"Honor Blackman a.k.a. Pussy Galore, what a total fucking misnomer. I wouldn't touch her with yours. I'd sooner shag Col Kreb. At least you know where you are with a woman like that. Not much to look at, like, but personality, that's what count s, that's what keeps a relationship going through the years. Like heroin. I mean, heroin's got fucking great personality."
so it does.
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1 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[20 Nov 2005|12:54pm] |
caught the opening of potter. best one yet. i think im going to start going to the movies by myself though because everytime i go with people they fall asleep. how the fuck do you fall asleep to harry getting chased by a fifty foot dragon? riddle me that.
shinedown is coming next month. pending on ticket price i might go.
steve made a random appearance at my work last night, it was very refreshing. he might come to my grandparents for thanksgiving.
thanksgiving....
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[17 Nov 2005|02:29pm] |
we got the fucking apartment. top that. hahhahahahahahhahahah.
"What does it profit a man to loose his only son and gain a world? It profits him the world."
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4 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[09 Nov 2005|02:09am] |
a man lies in his bed in a room with no door
he waits hoping for a presence, something, anything, to enter
after spending half his life searching, he still felt as blank as the ceiling at which he stared
he is alive, but feels absolutely nothing
so is he?
when he was six he believed that the moon over head followed him
by nine he had deciphered the allusion, trading magic for fact
no trade backs
so this is what it's like to be an adult
if he only knew now what he knew then
I'm open
come on in
I'm open
come on in
lying sideways atop crumpled sheets with no covers
he decides to dream
dream up a new self
for himself
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2 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[30 Oct 2005|01:34pm] |
When the conversation about The Dark Tower came up, it was one of those “Luke, I’m your father” kind of moments, because it became very, very clear to me of just what this project could be in comics, not just for Marvel, but for comics as a whole – as a medium.
this is going to be fucking big. the smile on my face is wider then amanda degregorios cunt right now.
april bitches.
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7 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[28 Oct 2005|01:26am] |
i walked around for four hours tonight.
i saw the adicts.
im reading trainspotting.
i cant write.
today i was given the proposition to either be blind or have no legs.
i wish the new harry potter were out already.
i wish the new tool album would be released already, as well as pearl jam's.
it's up here so high i start to mistake
up here so high in the sky, i scrape
i'm so high i hold just one breathe
a deep breathe in my chest
just like innocence
i remember when, yeah
swore i blew everything away, yeah
let's say knowledge is a tree, yeah
it's growin' up just like me, yeah
i'm so light, the wind he shakes
i'm so high up in the sky, i scrape, yeah
i'm so high i hold just one breathe
to go back to my nest... sleeping innocence
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[17 Oct 2005|01:54am] |
You make me dizzy Miss Lizzy
The way you rock and roll
You make me dizzy Miss Lizzy
When we do the stroll
Come on Miss Lizzy
Love me 'fore I grow too old
Come on, give me fever
put your little hand in mine
You make me dizzy dizzy Lizzy
oh, girl you look so fine
Just a rocking and a rolling
Girl I said I wish you were mine, ah
Ooh, ah
You make me dizzy Miss Lizzy
When you call my name
Ooo, baby
Say you're driving me insane
Come on, come on, come on, come on baby
I want to be your loving man, Ah
Run and tell your mama
I want you be my bride
Run and tell your brother
Baby don't run and hide
You make me dizzy Miss Lizzy
Girl I want to marry you
Come on, give me fever
put your little hand in mine, girl
You make me dizzy dizzy Lizzy
Girl you look so fine
You're just a rocking and a rolling
Ooo I said I wish you were mine, ah
you dont read this anyway.
"He thrusts his fists against the post and still insisits he sees a ghost." Bill, IT
Does everyone remember in wizard and glass when Roland got sucked into Maerlyn's Grapefruit and saw the Tower. He screamed and screamed but alas he was trapped. After freeing himself from the glammer of the ball his tet (Alain and Cuthbert) discussed the afair saying; Roland's voice was that of a king, and he now had a single gray hair on his crown. Further along the beam Roland reveals that after the events that took place in the fourth book his relationship with Cuthbert, his friend from childhood and fellow gunslinger, was never the same. A poison, a schism, came between them. Susan Degaldo. If it were not for her..., well ka may of had a different story to tell.
that's right, you've never read the books, scratch that.
"Time slowed and reality bent, on and on the eggman went." Henry, Dreamcatcher
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3 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[15 Oct 2005|03:09am] |
ah just realized, not five minutes ago, that i am goin to be alone for the rest of my life. as pathetic and sappy and shite as it sounds i believe so, i believed so not a moment ago legs shaking barely being able to stand and now that ive sat i dunot know if ah can get back up.
i found out somethin recently about my dad. i thought it would change a few things. it did not, i do not feel renewed, or like i have a purpose, or none of that. instead i feel nothing, no loss, no gain. i tend to look at my life as if were not real, like im reading it in a story. especially when it comes to my dad. its just easier to pretend it never happened, likesay i was divine creation, or some shit, just to distance myself from him as much as possible. its just easier thinking your pops never was.
i do not like to talk about these things as you all know, but what have i got left.
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[15 Oct 2005|01:50am] |
today a man that i work with. a man i have known since before you, your neighbor, and even before you, his son died this day. and everyone at work had the most somber faces. nobody seemed to raise their voice, and the jokes were terrible. "there's one more kid that'll never get to go to school, never get to fall in love, never get to be cool."
last night i decided to hop on a train and go to the weezer/foo fighters concert. i showed up half an hour late, scalped a ticket, and went in. got to my seat and realized i had rushed for no reason, hot hot heat was opening. i sat through two-no more like one and a half of their songs, before ah said fuck it and went to the bar to have a smoke. as i was walking the halls of the wachovia i realized; well, i realized. many stoned faces were in the crowds. i had a very good seat that i returned to after my smoke and stop at the mens room. weeezer's shit was being set up and i relaxed in my seat. i started to space out and came to when weezer started playin. the first song i did not know, nor did i the second. so a minute into the second song i hoped out of my chair and ran down to the bathroom, swung into a stall, and lit a j. put it away in less than two minutes and slide back to my seat. i sit down and begin to relax. the set was amzing, so amazing i forgot the a in the first amazing. theres a bunch of stories to go along but way too many for now.
something weird happened though, as i was waiting for the broad line an old black guy (looked homeless) started singing, it was only myself and a few others waiting for the line. i realized the words he were singing would be pretty ominous if i could make them out. His speech was terrible though, ah could only understand parts; something about waiding in the water and coming to shore, and being alone. Shame really, seemed a nce tune.
ive had this song stuck in my head all night.
Calm steps walking backwards on the road
I'm counting my way back to heaven
I can't be free with what's locked inside of me
If there was a key you took it in your hand
There's no wrong or right
but I'm sure there's good and bad
the questions linger overhead
No matter how cold the winter
There's a springtime ahead
I'm thumbing my way back to heaven
I wish that I could hold you
I wish that I had
Thinking about heaven
I let go of the rope
Thinking that's what held me back
And in time I've realized
It's now wrapped around my neck
You say now I got all this room
And no money to decorate it, so some
Local customer put me in touch with the man
Upstairs, he said little man you got no
Business gettin' frustrated, you gotta rest
"All things serve the beam." -Roland
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[10 Oct 2005|01:49am] |
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My grandmother has been in the hospital since Friday afternoon. I feel like shit, ahm completely morose, and I have never felt so fucking alone. I do not know what else to say, I am a bit scared. She should be back tomorrow but will have to return the day after for some tests. I have work again tomorrow, i feel like i live there i work four days a week.
Today i had taramasu cake. it was like...it was nice. I dunno.
My lips are shakin', my nails are bit off
Been a month since I've heard myself talk
All the advantage this life's got on me
Picture a coffin in the middle of the sea
And I fight back in my mind...
Never let's me be right, oh...
I got memories, I got shit
So much it don't show...
I walked the line
When you held me in that night
I walked the line
When you held my hand that night...
An empty shell seems so easy to crack
Got all these questions, don't know who I could even ask
So I'll just lie alone and wait for the dream
Where I'm not ugly and you're lookin' at me
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1 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[05 Oct 2005|04:21pm] |
i was on my way home last night and thought i was going through a thinny. i was waiting to turn up in Topeka, Kansas and find Maerlyn's grapefruit.
The rusted chains of prison moons
Are shattered by the sun.
I walk a road, horizons change
The tournament's begun.
The purple piper plays his tune,
The choir softly sing;
Three lullabies in an ancient tongue,
For the court of the crimson king.
The keeper of the city keys
Put shutters on the dreams.
I wait outside the pilgrim's door
With insufficient schemes.
The black queen chants
the funeral march,
The cracked brass bells will ring;
To summon back the fire witch
To the court of the crimson king.
"go then. there are other worlds than these."
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1 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[14 Sep 2005|03:37pm] |
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Ever feel the way Eddie's step-dad must of when he found out betterman was about him? it's not fun.
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[07 Jul 2005|06:47pm] |
19 was good to me yesterday. im exhausted and there's way too much to update right now. summer school sucks, i hate getting up so early, it makes the day so long. i need a job, and a hair cut.i need a shower before i go out, gotta get rid of these juices. almost fucked up my arm even more than it was last night.
i almost fucking killed jamie last night.
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1 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[22 Jun 2005|11:56pm] |
i was just upstairs going to the bathroom and decided to weigh myself. i weigh 168 with my clothes on. hah hah charade you are.
also, short finally gave me his demo album, its in my pocket.
Pour my life into a paper cup
The ashtray's full and I'm spillin' my guts
She wants to know am I still a slut
I've got to take it on the otherside
A scarlet starlet and she's in my bed
A candidate for a soul mate bled
Push the trigger and pull the thread
I've got to take it on the otherside
Take it on the otherside
Take it on
Take it on
How long how long will I slide
Separate my side
I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
It's all I ever
Turn me on, take me for a hard ride
Burn me out leave me on the otherside
I yell and tell it that
It's not my friend
I tear it down I tear it down
But then it's born again
How long how long will I slide
Separate my side
I don't
I don't believe it's bad
Slittin' my throat
It's all I ever had
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2 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[22 Jun 2005|11:31pm] |
say 19 out loud, you'll feel good inside. or bad. maybe a little bit of both. ka-shume is another good word. know what it means? death will come to your ka-tet. felling it is terrible. feeling it more than once is black. im fucking drunk. im at short's house right now drinking with him kevin and some other people, i didn't feel like playing asshole so im on the computer.
uhhhh when did i last update? oh yeah. i was waiting for a phone call and i got it and went out from 12 till 2. it was fun and i didnt end up at a diner even though with the company i had i wouldn't have cared where i was, but for the sake of logic, i was driving around the whole time. we laughed about jaime's mom's bumper stickers and talked about music and movies. heard some good bands. i want an ipod now, wait i don't even have a car. i have to get up at nine tomorrow. boooo. charlie is down the shore, boooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! i miss my brother. i tried reading wizard and glass the other night and realized i don't think i'll ever be able to again, just too too much.
tina, i tried calling you yesterday and you were out, you're pretty hard to get a hold of.
i woke up to a pretty cool phone call yesterday.
"all those yesterdays"
mmm pearl jam. we're listening to van morrison right now. good fucking times. i actually don't feel like being here right now which is why im not playing asshole i feel 19. van morrison was skipping so i put placebo on. every you every me. mmmm. o sleep why do you elude me like so many other aspects of life that to others come so naturally.
oh yeah, there's this little girl that lives in one of the apartments at njp, her name is madison. while it was rainning today she came into the store soaked, i said hey what are you doing out in the rain? she replied jumping in puddles i couldn't help but smile. 19.
people you meet in diners are cool.
wow. i found counting crows round here on shorts computer. mmm.
i think im done.
all hail the crimson king and discordia. toghether we can rule the todash space.
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2 in the clearing - I kill with my heart.
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[20 Jun 2005|10:00pm] |
so im alive, just incase anyone was wondering. i didn't graduate, i start summer school next tuesday,yesterday was father's day. i got kicked out of my house for everyone that said they wouldn't really do it. i saw batman begins, and Carmine Falcone was awesome and now he's being reconized, but hey i said he was good in 28 days later and nobody agreed.
i had kind of a bad day today, my grandpop yelled at me. and i dont think anyone will understand why but it was the most insulting thing that's ever happened to me. when we left i got in the car and layed down and had a cigarette. it sucked.
and now im waiting for a phone call when i could already be out but i was not about to go see lords of dogtown, and im probably gonna end up at denny's or tom jone's, with my diner buddies. yeah. mmm blue ribbon special 2.99.
someone called me a rude bastard yesterday. i was like, wow. thanks.
"Argue not the hand you are dealt in the game of cards or life."
bird and bear.
amazing song from ELP "from the begining"
There might have been things I missed
But don't be unkind
It don't mean I'm blind
Perhaps there's a thing or two
I think of lying in bed
I shouldn't have said
But there it is
You see, it's all clear
You were meant to be here
From the beginning
Maybe I might have changed
And not been so cruel
Not been such a fool
Whatever was done is done
I just can't recall
It doesn't matter at all
You see, it's all clear
You were meant to be here
From the beginning
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